I feel badly for my mom and my sister. They're both here and are watching dad deteriorate before their eyes. I show up with my baby, and while dad looks frail and it's clear he's different, and he perks up at the sight and sound of his Sachiko. The photo with this blog entry is a brief moment when dad was awake and happy. After this he closed his eyes and slept again.
I know over the course of the next several days, mom will open up and get emotional, but it's clear to me that she is trying to remain strong for dad. It's amazing watching her be the one that is tenderly taking care of dad...just last month, before they left in the RV, dad was the one taking care of and catering to mom. Suzanne, on the other hand, lives in a seperate house so there's more space for her to cry and be emotional. It's weird. I'm the strong one right now and consoling her. We've been blessed that dad has lived this long...a 3-6 month life expectancy after the diagnosis means that he should have died a year ago. What a gift to actually know that life is short and to know that we needed to spend every possible moment with our dad.
Tomorrow, dad's primary care physician will see him so I'm sure there will be more light to shed on what's going on. Hopefully, my sister isn't right and that dad's days are fewer than any of us is really ready for. Who will be the strong one then?
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